I have filled many journal pages in my day; however despite my 2 decades of journaling, I would say that only the last 2 years have been filled with more positive notations and thoughts.
As a child, I stayed to myself. I didn’t bother anyone and I was pretty self sufficient before I was ten years old. When I did start to socialize, I was awkward and often made fun of. Needless to say, I documented those experiences and continued to beat myself up over the things that others did not like about me.
I carried those negative words, comments and taunts with me into my adulthood and sought out the wrong friends and attention only to find myself more unhappy and very depressed. When someone didn’t want to hang out with me, I questioned myself, my personality even the way I dressed. I doubted my ability to be a friend and I compared myself to others, who I believed “had it all.”
I knew I was different when it came to my looks, my thoughts and actions but when people started picking me apart in their own unique ways, I didn’t like being different. I hated it and I found myself altering myself to please those who I encountered. If they didn’t like my glasses, I took them off (Lord knows I needed them.) If they said I talked too much, I kept quiet. And when I was called a scatterbrain, I kept my thoughts and ideas to myself.
This practice and these mental beatings continued on until about 2 years ago when I decided to make a positive change from the inside out and today I’m sharing the 4 ways I embrace my quirks through journal writing.
1.I “talked” about them. Of course, you know what I mean when I say I talked about my quirks. I wrote them down. I created lists of my so called quirks and I reflected on them. I was called “four eyes” in elementary and middle school. I didn’t think this made me quirky or weird but it did to others. So I often wrote down all the reasons why I wear glasses (because I am blind without them) and I reflected on how much I LOVE wear my glasses.
2. Turn a NEGATIVE into a POSITIVE! THIS is possible and I believe this is best done through the art of affirmation writing. Taking a negative thought that you have about yourself and turning it into something beautiful that represents you can and will surely boost your confidence. For example, one of my biggest quirks is being a scatterbrain. I have been disregarded and frowned upon because my ability to live life with 2,188 tabs open in my head but to me, I see it as endless possibilities and ideas surging through me. Take that negative and make it positive, you know you can.
3. Stop the madness of comparing! I am me and you are you, so why do we need to compare ourselves to each other? We’re only human and it happens often. I used to compare myself to a friend all the time. I literally picked my life apart while analyzing her life and mine. We had similar quirks, yet she was embraced by masses and I was barely getting hits on my blog. Doing so almost cost me my relationship with my husband, my focus and another bout of severe depression. I used my journal to remind myself of who I was and what I was here to do. I filled those pages with ideas, missions, more affirmations and reminders that I was put on this earth for different reasons as my friend and those were the reasons that I had to not only focus on but also appreciate.
4. (Love) Notes to Self :) When it comes to embracing who we are, how we behave and what we do, we can’t seek out others to remind us of how special we are, we have to look within in and what better way to do that than by writing love letters to yourself. Last year, I dedicated the month of February to self love and I launched the Self-Love Letter Challenge. I encouraged participates to write love letters to herself and mean every word she wrote. I too joined in on the challenge and I used those letters to open up more about my quirks and accept that this was me! This is who I am and who I always will be. I still reference those letters at least once a week, especially when I feel a case of negativity trying to move in on me.
The reality that it has taken me almost 30 years to accept myself doesn’t deter me, it motivates me. I know that I was created this way for a reason and as much as it would be nice for everyone to understand, I know that they do not have to understand it. Accepting your quirks makes you stronger, it builds a confidence that no one can take away from you and through journaling I learned that I am invincible and so are you.
Embrace your quirks. Write them down, reflect on them, turn negative statements into positive affirmations, stop playing compare and contrast with YOUR personality and remember to acknowledge self-love!
Are you ready to reflect? What’s one of your biggest quirks? How have you embraced it? Share your quirky reflections below.
Until next time, stay blessed all!